February 2012
3 posts
My pregnancy story..well at least the start of...
I have promised several people that I would tell the story of the CRAZY whirlwind that proceeded the birth of my love. It has taken three months because I am either too exhausted to put thoughts into coherent sentences..or am snuggling the little man himself. Of course I have to tell this story the same way I tell all stories, in excruciating detail..because it is the story of my...
Feb 22, 2012 (Barely)
Dear Jaxston,
It is three thirty in the morning and I am wide awake. You just had a bottle. You have a new thing. You constantly chew on my shoulder. I normally try to stop you, but it is late/early and I am tired. I put you in your car seat while I prepare your bottle. I like to pre mix. That way the entire kitchen isn’t ALWAYS covered with powder..and it is quick and easy....
I am back for real this time.
I am full of words and silence and am trying to find the part of me that I want to share. I have a story..and despite the consequences I want to tell it. You do not have to chose to listen to my story. I make this disclaimer because a year ago, maybe it was two…I had a “friend” take issue with something I had written. His thin-skinned and ego centric wife MADE something...
November 2011
1 post
“Silly goose…It has never been the rhythmic sound of your ocean waves that...”
– AG
September 2011
1 post
I had a talk with Bonnie today.
It is the anniversary of her death..and I have been in conflict this year. I don’t want to grieve anymore. That sounds kinda insensitive, so let me explain. On her death bed she was emotional one day because she did not want to be defined by her disease. She felt like she had lived thirty years that everyone had forgotten and now she was just a girl with cancer. I am ashamed that I have let...
July 2011
1 post
I am back! I took an unintended vacation to nurse...
But I have had a terrible week and I am missing Bonnie. So I am back. I need to send some thoughts out into the Universe..and feel like that somehow they will make their way to her. The last few months have been CRAZY. First off..I am prego!! I am having a hard time getting excited because most nights after 6 I am too sick to do anything but fetal position and pray I go to sleep.
I want to tell...
June 2011
11 posts
“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.”
– Albert Einstein (via nathanielswhite)
“The appearance of things changes according to the emotions; and thus we see...”
– Khalil Gibran (via julie911)
I guess I could go on all day listening to sad...
but instead I am going to tell you what the problem is. We are swiftly approaching D day. Bonnie’s diagnosis day. THREE years have flown by. Which is just another reminder of how short life is. This year is even worse because I have something I need to talk to her about. I feel like there is not one person on this Earth that I can share the things with that I shared with her. My...
April 2011
5 posts
I am giving away a FREE PHOTOGRAPHY SESSION
on my Facebook fan/business page. The session is a full length session which is one hour long and allows for wardrobe changes. It comes with a disk of all the edited images (usually between 30 and 60.)
I am a huge fan of competitions (you can’t be a sales rep all your life and not love numbers and competition) so I am making the contest a competition. This is how it works. Whoever gets the...
A testament to my love for all living creatures.
I love animals. Everyone knows this. But what most people don’t know is that I kill NOTHING. Well, the occasional mosquito falls victim just because I slap before I think. When I was a teenager my parents house was infested with ants..to this day I am blamed for that..as in “NO, we ARE killing these ants..do you REMEMBER the time we were infested because you didn’t want them...
March 2011
84 posts
I am hugely considering
recommitting myself to Jack Daniels. If anyone has any valid reasons as to why I should avoid this unholy union speak so now, otherwise keep your judgment to yourself.
“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”
– Eleanor Roosevelt (via kari-shma)
“The very impulse to write, I think, springs from an inner chaos crying for...”
– Arthur Miller (via asireallyam)
“What we once enjoyed and deeply loved we can never lose, for all that we love...”
– Helen Keller (via julie911)
“Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead.”
– Charles Bukowski (via how-to-fall)
“Books fall open, you fall in. When you climb out again, you’re a bit larger than...”
– Gregory Maguire (via word-collector)
“Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light;
I have loved...”
– Sarah Williams ‘The Old Astronomer’ (via quote-book)
I hated publications like Busted Magazine.
Hate them. I have never even taken a peek at one. With all my MANY MANY short comings..entertaining myself with other people’s misery is not one of my flaws. I have not been in Busted Mag…YET. Hope to never make it there..am not so arrogant to pretend that I won’t. I should have been arrested for public drunkenness..oh, I don’t know HUNDREDS of times. I am loud and obnoxious sober..I once had a...
“You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame: how could you become new,...”
– Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra (via solifugae)
“Always do what is right. It will gratify half of mankind and astound the other.”
– Mark Twain (via kari-shma)
“The sun shines and warms and lights us and we have no curiosity to know why this...”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson (via madaeli26)